In a world of your own harshest critics, I am El Presidente. Both when I shoot and when I edit there’s a whiny little man in my head telling me I’m not at the top of my game. I’m never ever good enough for him. I wonder if I ever will be.
Today I’ve decided not to listen to him.
Because when I look back at 2010 I feel nothing but joy. I still have weddings to blog, but they’ll have to wait. All that agonising in front of the computer is forgotten. Instead I look back at a year of travels, both around Australia, but also three laps around the world. I shot 18 overseas weddings in different parts of the world. I’ve met people I’ll never forget and taken an ok photo or two.
Today and maybe only today I can look at what I have done and be at least a little proud. Tomorrow I’ll be back to beating myself up again, but today I’ll go easy on myself and give myself a light, almost feather-like, pat on the back.
Today I’ll tell myself I did alright.